morning thoughts

 its 8 in the morning currently
im sitting in bed on my laptop typing this
theres a lot of pain in the world, a sentiment i repeat often
but its true, though it doesn’t help to repeat it
bleh!

the outside world today is very pretty
the sun is still rising outside so its orange
and it looks very, very beautiful
ive been down as of late but seeing that helped a lot
makes me wanna get over some stuff
and im hanging out with a friend tomorrow
so im pretty happy about that

ive been listening to a lot of perfume!
theyre a 3 piece jpop group, produced by Yasutaka Nakata
well their first batch of singles weren’t
but their most notable ones are, and they’re amazing!
some of my favorite music
my favorite album from them from what ive heard is either JPN or GAME

im still learning the group, i know the members but im steadily learning their personalities
ive been watching interviews and all that jazz, so im personally excited
they’re a very cute group and their music is great
one of the main reasons i actually switched over to jpop from… that
it feels a lot more real, more passionate
a lot of it feels nice to look at and all that

ive been kinda into jpop for a bit
never in full swing though, for example i used to listen to puffy a lot
and ive been getting into sakurazaka46 too! (shout out to will)
its something thats been there in my life but i never thought about it 
but im glad its in full effect currently

shorter post than usual but its early in the morning
hope everyone has a good day! ill try

content

 ive been overthinking a lot as of late
mostly about my everyday life
im not sure why
… i write about the same 3 things
i really really need to get out more

i like writing but i have nothing to write about
the only thing to write really is frustration
and paranoia and everything blah blah blah
its stupid - not to feel these obviously, but 
to write and write and write about the same thing
over and over again with 0 progression
just shut up already! please!
all you ever talk about are your problems.
mention something else!

thats how i really feel
it kind of sucks
but id rather be honest with myself
then unhappy talking about the same stuff
eh, that felt too dramatic

i listened to jazz last night
i set my phone on my nightstand while i let apple music’s jazz playlist play
it was amazing. i spent the last few days in my head panicking
at that time especially, emotions were high
it was soothing, i was relaxed
string of positive emotions washed over me as i sat there
negative thoughts were beginning to permeate 
it felt like all my worries were gone in an instant
what an absolutely amazing genre
can not wait to explore it further

ive been watching the chainsaw man anime as of late
i usually dont watch anime of manga ive read
as i tried with oshi no ko and got bored very quickly
but this one blew me away
the animation, the music, the pacing
all so so so good. i love it all so much!
i cant wait for the reze arc movie next month

i love manga so much
ive been reading more and more as time goes on
and it makes me so happy
theres so much good stuff out there
and its just there, to read
phenomenal

i dont know what else i have to write right now
but i feel really good, great even
shout out to everyone