overslept

i seriously need to come up with a new name for the blog, i mean its a death grips reference but it feels so jarringly different with the blog's tone (which i also need to change the theme for too, this one uses the old one from the julienet blog and those days are over) but i don't know what to name it to! not sure if this is a normal conundrum but it's something ive been thinking about since i started this blog actually. i feel i have a good name in me but i want one that encapsulates something, actually i dont care about that! i want a cool name that's cool! a cool name is what makes it worth it imo. not much has happened in the past 2 days really worth commenting on, but i felt like making a post because why not? i was reading the old old blog and saw i was making a post every few days and i wanted to try that again! maybe not to the extent of those posts because a lot of them were just... long for no reason other than proving to myself i can write a bunch, which i proved that i can i guess. it was kinda lame because i felt like i was just wasting my time making posts just to say i have posts and like,,,, LAME! that's lame. thats super lame. i really love maintaining this blog, i love the process of just writing whatever and also choosing its themes and whatnot. i just changed the theme of the blog and it looks nicer so all i need now is a name... hm.... stolenartvalor? i guess? too lame, thats my online username. ohhh wait, "the blog of the coolest person ever", perfect! its true too, i really am the coolest person ever so i might as well. i should test my words per minute, see how fast i can type on this chromebook that ive been using for my blogs since 2022... wow, 3 years almost and the only problem is the camera stopped working. thats kinda impressive, anyways, my wpm: 78wpm... not bad but its not as good as i want it to be. i wouldve expected a much higher rate because i think the highest i ever gotten on this is a 92. blegh theres so much going on in my brain so let me do this real quick to clear my mind:  AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHN AHHHH AHHHH I AM SO STRESSED OUT AND WORRIED FOR NO REAL REASONNNNN I START COLLEGE IN A FEW DAYS AND I HAVEN'T CHECKED ANYTHING LIKE I DON'T KNOW WHEN MY CLASSES START OR WHERE THEY'RE AT AND THATS STRESSING ME OUT LIKE I CANT JUST CHECK I HAVE SO MUCH STUFF ON MY MIND AND I NEED TO GET IT OUT I HATE MODERN SOCIETY I THINK POP CULTURE IS BEING CONTROLLED AND ITS RUINING WHAT LIFE WE HAVE NOW I HAVE TO MOVE SOON AND IDK WHERE IM GOING AND THAT'S STRESSING ME OUT WAY MORE THAN IT SHOULD I HATE MY JOB I HATE TWITTER I HATE EMOTIONS I HATE THAT CREATIVITY NETS YOU NOTHING WORTHY UNLESS YOU'RE LUCKY BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE I'M GOOD AT ART AT LEAST ENOUGH TO TAKE OFF DOING ART FOR OTHERS BUT I HAVE NO LUCK WHATSOEVER IN ANYTHING AND ITS KILLING ME I LOVE MAKING ART THO SO IM GOING TO CONTINUE BUT LIKE COME ON I WANNA MAKE A BAND OR TWO I NEED FREEDOM I NEEEEEDDDDD FREEDOM I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY BUT SO LITTLE WORDS TO SAY THEM ALTHOUGH ALL I DO IS WRITE A BUNCH OF JUNK ON THE INTERNET INTO A VOID AGHHHH AGH AGH AGH I HATE COLLEGE.

okay, better now. at least i think i am. ive been thinking so much about this stuff and haven't gotten out in a tangible way so everything has been getting in the way because ive been thinking too much about it. at least to me thats what it seems like. finally moved over to typing on my phone and this feels much nicer. i can write while laying down which my body needs + listening to the music i want to which is nice, feels much better i guess. i don't know why i never got any of what i written out, or better wording, why i spent so long to have it come out. i kinda wish it wasn't through the blog but i guess it's better than it not coming out at all, so that's one way of thinking about it. i think i need to finish spy x family, I have all the volumes but since LOONA has came back into my life I haven't gotten to it. i think I'll read it tomorrow morning if I have the time, im currently on volume 12. i did read excerpts from the fanbook and it was really cool, i like the concept art shown and the writing was cool, I love seeing art made for apps finally get print and sns drawings also get in too as I think they're pretty important too, that and it's cute seeing them. 

bleh i fell asleep while writing this. surprised i even finished on a cohesive sentence. strongly recommend Sweet Things by Ai Aso, amazing song. that's all for now. see you later!