noncohesive

i hate my bed

i spend most of my time there but nothing gets done

its not particularly comfortable either

i slouch while sitting on it

my whole body is stiff trying to lay on it

i don’t like laying in my bed

… so why is it hard to get out of?

work gets done mentally and physically off of it

yet i tend to put my body in this anguish

is it even anguish? I feel like a blank wall

whatever it is, it sucks

ive been listening to a lot of lucy bedroque as of late

stumbled upon the 2010 justin bieber video and loved the song

listened to the mixtape its from as well and loved that too

also checked out prettifun per friend’s recommendation

absolutely stellar; great albums front to back

im not a big fan of much underground hiphop as of late

but this feels great to listen to, it feels unique while clearly inspired

the only problem is spotify’s sound quality… so so bad

i haven’t had a chance to import the files to my phone yet

i might in the morning

i recently finished the first part of dragon ball and wanted to read something between that and Z

so i decided to read fujimoto’s fire punch and wow… what a story

im surprirsed i was able to read it all in one day but im glad i did

its a great, heartbroken and gutwrenching story that almost got me

im a very emotional person so i’ll cry if it touches my heart enough and this almost did

i cant say much without having any spoilers but… wow.

fujimoto might be the greatest mangaka the world has ever seen

he’s only so young too… like 32 last i checked, thats really young

that young with a great selection of stories and 2 amazing series on your hands

that and being a crazy film fan, it’s very obvious with his work too which is nice

something about it feels very very nice. one of the greatest in my opinion.

manga is such an interesting format, i guess it mostly stems from me being a pseudo-weeb

im not really crazy about japan’s culture or the way they operate, quite far from it

but all my favorite movies and stories have came from japan… i mean, godzilla for crying out loud!

godzilla is a cool creature that destroys stuff and is sometimes evil and its dope every time

one of my favorite series; honestly all of tokusatsu stuff is

ive been in such a weird spot as of late

i dont feel like myself yet i feel completely intact

im inspired to create, i love what im doing, im reading more

im engaging with stories and art i love on a daily basis now

im doing so much that makes me happy so why do i feel this way?

what’s the issue? i don’t know. it’s not college or anything (surprisingly).

best not to think about it; it’s no use to think negatively

i like writing blog posts like this as i mentioned before

there’s no incentive to think hard to come up with what to write

everything comes more naturally this way

ive been wording my feelings in a way that makes me happy and i feel gets my point across

im super happy that i decided to try this new format of writing because its freeing

i talk about various topics in a way that makes sense to me

while letting my mind roam free, its nice