stressed

11 am and i dont know what im doing
im out of my apartment in less than a month
so I gotta get out and find a new place
it shouldn’t be too hard but obviously im stressed
i havent posted here in a bit haven’t i?
not really intentional, just a stressful time
what’s been going on as of late?

class, work and fear, on repeat
i shouldn’t be stressed and im not
its going to be okay, it always is
but im beyond annoyed i suppose
blegh, being an adult absolutely sucks, i hate this
thats not really i want to write about though

ive been reading more and more manga as of late
i recently finished kaiju no 8, bloom into you and i cant say no to the lonely girl
i also finished the chainsaw man anime and the re-read the first two volumes
super great stuff, fujimoto is an absolute goat
im super excited for the movie this month and the anthology next month
so much good stuff for the rest of the year
just get through this year and it’ll be okay, just get through this

kaiju no 8 is really good, super fun shonen but nothing too crazy
bloom into you is absolutely amazing, great entry into the yuri genre
every chapter left me wanting more and i was so upset when it ended
it was also super cute, and the characters were great. i was rooting the whole time
i cant say no to the lonely girl was also cute, though i wasn’t engaged as much
i thought it was cute nonetheless, and it was a pleasure reading it
its somewhat funny to me that im a straight dude thats into yuri
to some extent, i feel bad because it feels like fetishization but its really not
i just like these stories because i hate straight stories and BL is too much at times
a very cute love story with characters who have strong emotions is a very appealing premise
to me at least, so thats why i love engaging with it a lot
also i never felt more excited reading anything than i have gl and thats saying a lot
i hope more stories end up like this because theyre all super cute

i realized recently i never really start anything i plan, everything i do is spur of the moment
for example, i was going to read nana but ended up reading kaiju no 8 instead
i was gonna read akira and read bloom into you
so on and so on
it comes to no surprise that forcing myself to do something isn’t the move
thats what i did with jpop and all that stuff
im still into it, but i forced myself too hard
and it kinda sucks because i was interested in it a bunch
but its nothing deep really, im not going to connect it to something “grander”
as theres no really strong point in doing so
caring too much about interactions with entertainment is so stupid
i shouldnt stress myself out too much about it

my brain hurts so much from everything, too much writing this semester
and only more to come as im going into journalism
and creative writing
goddddd my brain feels fuzzy, i hate it all so much
all i wanna do is read manga, lay in bed, listen to music and not be depressed
i hate so muchhhhhhh and i feel my time is being wasted
its not really that deep but it feels like it i guess
eh, ill grow up